And those nails were yours, but there’s no hole in your hands.

And those nails were yours, but there’s no hole in your hands.
… Don't read this unless you intend on reading this fully and with detail. The condition of your heart is a matter that people contemplate daily. It could be in terms of future; God's will, friendships, family, relationships or if there is a God. But, the condition, the state, the order of your heart is still a paradox, even if it is a daily exercise. It's exercised in ways of emotions, words, actions. At times those emotions words and actions can be dark, cold, rash. Other times they are warm, compassionate and caring. That all falls under the mercy of circumstance and given place and judgment.This I say to be true, and true forever. The condition of the heart will always manifest itself through actions, words and emotions. You see, recently I've gained some perspective in my life. Life can have times of darkness or times of light. But, how would your life be if all you knew was light? How would you know how keep humble? On the other hand, if all you knew was darkness… Where or how can your appreciate happiness, comfort, or joy.Frankly, 2007 was a bad year for me. Did it have its good times, months, events. Yes. Of course, I had some great memories. But, an honest evaluation of this year brings me to the conclusion that it was faster, more difficult, and more painful than I would like a typical year to be. In my weakness and defeat this year I found myself humbled and humiliated. I didn't bring to the table the caliber of personality, love, or faith I had before. I fell short of my own expectations. This, is a blog of the heart.Where is your heart? Honestly?Can you evaluate where your spirit rest in the heart?Have your parents divorced? Have you ever been seriously depressed?Are you struggling with financial issues?Are you fighting with someone special?Is there family problems?Church problems?Alcohol addiction?Suicide?Drug addiction?Pornography addiction?Is your vanity the vice in your morning mirror?Just a girl caught up trying to prove to your boy that you're valuable?Just a guy weighting the faults and victories in a relationship?Is your heart ok?Are you dark? Broken?All of these reflect the condition of your heart. It's a whole mix of situations and factors that play into how your life is portrayed. Now, given that.Even the issue rises more.Because of these factors they bring on more clamor and discord. You facilitate your brokenness with something to fill that hole in your heart. -Can't seem to get the right girl… so you drown yourself in the perfect bodies on foul web-pages. So, that problem in your life is growing this dark spot on your heart. It's brining you down into this depression. The depression brings you to question God. God's not in your life anymore, so then, you give yourself to drugs, alcohol and drunk girls that have no respect for themselves. I hear so many times the vocal desires of one. An outpour for change, a deep repentance and change of actions. But, they're follow through is contradictory to their vocal desires. It instead becomes a movement for social recognition. "I need to change ______"Where is your heart really? Your actions are your heart. Your words are your heart. Your loved ones are your heart. What is your priority? It is your heart.Do you value your job? Do you have a job?Do you value your revenue? …If you have a revenue.Do you value your family? How do you show it?Do you value your friends? Do they know it?How much time do you spend thinking about video games, movies, or other stuff?How much more time do you spend on these things?What about drugs, porn alcohol? Did it ever relate to you that if you spend a lot of time with this stuff, it might be unhealthy attactched? At this point you're probably really able to see where your priorities fall.BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. Honesty is key. It's probably not out of this world to think you have compromised some of your integrity because of the nature of these questions of accountability. Priorities really start getting interesting when the incentive behind others become apparent. Like for example. Cheating.Ever known someone that's cheated? Isn't disgusting? I mean, it is. If you have shame on you. But, regardless, the bigger point is. The person you cheated on didn't have much value in your heart. For, if they did, you would truly have not cheated on them. That alone says mountains for those whom cheat multiple times. For in cheating is alongside with lies and deceit. They was not the person of priority, the mistress took front and center.Holding grudges? I hate this one really bad. I got this one person in particular that makes me remember how much I detest this trait in people. This is an issue of the heart that brings in a lot of truth in someone's true heart state. Where is the true winner in this one? Where is the incentive gain? What makes sense about severance? This one really stings when this person claims to be a Christian. The single most forgiving character ever depicted in reality and teaches the fruitfulness of forgiveness yet, Christians can be some of the most unforgiving, grudge holders I've ever known. There are other things that keep my mind busy when it comes to terms of the heart.Depression. People that doubt. Or people who are arrogant in their false doctrine. Blows my mind. People who really try to define the bible. When the Bible is supposed to define you. It' seriously will wreak your world. It will change your life. For the good of course. But, honestly. People get the idea that your SUPPOSED TO BE MORALLY PERFECT? I got a flash for you. God is more focus on going in the direction of Christ than he watching your pride yourself in moral perfection.Give it away. Beyond the scars. Beyond the callous…Beyond the darkness,beyond the past.There rest a place of your heart that is dormant, waiting, for you to unleash the unbinding love for God and others that you're able to do.We are a messed up people. We are broken. Those nails were ours.Those nails should be in my hands. The fact of the matter is we'll never be satisfied with churches or people in them. Or the hypocrites for immorality and the hypocrites in gossip for talking about them. At the end of the day walk with love. Bring your heart to the place of comfort, joy, peace.Know where your at! Be the love. Be the love. Be the love.