Why?

I have so much to say but it seems like I can't speak to save my life. I yearn to express these burdens, trials, frustration, joy, laughter and accomplishments. However if I express frustration - Am I complaining? - Or if I have an accomplishment - Am I bragging? - Or - Taking the glory from the Father who deserves the recognition? - However when I do speak, I do so abundantly and with unnecessary elaboration. So my listener really hears yadda, yadda, yadda (Or did they listen patiently?). Complex indeed! Because now based on my action I'm judging their reactions immediately without notice. Should I really approach someone who has sinned agenst me in sheer spite? Ahh! Troubled is my mind. How do I keep my friends accountable without them thinking that Im trying to be better than they are? Moreover ask You didnt used to cuss why now? knowing their response will be an excuse. Retorting with a tainted justification aimed to make me look like the Holy legalist. Maybe I need to get out of my Christian diapers. Apparently I have to grasp a rope & scale this character flaw(s). Until _____~!n HIS grip,-D