Space, Kids and Truth.

Have you ever sat at night and had these gut-wrenching feelings from the pit of your soul rip you apart in fear, a bottomless gap, a black hole of sorrow spawning into eternity? I have.It's pretty consistent every time I think of space, God, death. This feeling comes back, resurfaces and shows its ugly face again. We are a species so divine we need to know everything. Crazy, I know! We're not satisfied with knowing that we don't know. We breed the idea that if its not been proven by science it can not be real. What's past science? Is there more? It's a philosophical question. It is deep in nature, simple in presentation. It's the catalyst for my 'episodes.' What would a kid say when asked do you believe in fairy tales? It's sometimes hard for me to play with kids because I've at some point lost the idea that you can imagine!Matthew 18:3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.I'm a theist! I believe in one God that gives me purpose and value. I believe that he is my heavenly father and he will provide for me perfectly and even if times are tough. I will trust in Him to be just to me, as His child. I want to be a KID.I usually solve my cosmic doubt by praying that God give me proof. God give me apologetical reassurance that He is there. Here recently I've had a couple of run-in's with God's majesty. Some answered prayers for close friends, some friends being a wonderful example and light to the world, God is alive, and working! But, I'm real; I'm human and have my times of doubt and concern. Ultimately, I seek God's absolute truth, with-out being parasitical and dogmatic, with out being abrasive, stopping pseudo 'truth doctrine' and truly exhibit an authentic faith and being a fruitful disciple of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior; finding that you can commune with your brothers and sisters in Christ beyond denominational walls; finding that you can worship in more ways than one; finding that Jesus himself prays for unity. (John 17). So maybe, one day a bunch of 'kids' will finally make it to the playground together, seeing that we are all just silly children who love the same Daddy. That has no prejudice in nature and who love each other and share candy. Knowing finally, that in the end it will be alright, cause at night, when you're alone, and scared of all the cosmic unknowns. Daddy will tuck you in. Tell you He's there and won't leave. Tell you that He loves you, and in the morning you know breakfast will be ready. Cause He's also your provider, sustainer. I love my Daddy-in-the-SkyPhilippians 2:15so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe