Dimonds are never born pretty.

It's rounding 3am.This is when I think. This is when my mind goes ape nuts with thoughts, ideas and more thoughts.So if you've been a "regular" in my blogs, you're going to notice something lately. I've been in a reflective mood. Now, I'm done with the preface.Life as you know it from right now will change.Change? Yes! Change…Like the world changes, every moment in history has change.Simple seconds have changed the whole world.You're world, brings what change?Let's take this to another level. What if? What if? You had never met your best friend. Or your girl friend. Or was not born in USA.Would you're life change? How have they changed you?Not to be arrogant, conceited or egocentric but I'm going to be honest. I was thinking about people in my life that I have affected. A couple in particular, but I digress.Point is, point being. You're life is utterly imprisoned by the people and environment you put yourself it.True? Yes.What person in your life made you who you are?Teacher?Parent?Friend?Foe?God?It rattles my noggin to think of rerouting my life without certain people in it. I'm so scared of what I might be! I mean, If I had a different youth minister.Oh, and putting other things into play. When I was in 10 years old, my 13-year-old cousin Kai passed away playing basketball…Heart failure. On the court. Right before Shepherd Vs Knifley.Complete shock. Tragedy.How would my Aunt's family be if he had not passed away 10 years ago?I'm still upset about that from time to time.From that point on Kai had an amazing impact on the direction of my life.Without his death, I would never have searched for God like I did afterwards.My grandmother would never had told me to "follow in his footsteps"That statement alone changed my world.Deep thinking. Deep thinking on where I would be right now if only Kai had survived. How would my family be different as a whole?You're turn…You're turn to find out who has shaped you. Who had an impact on your life. And, truly I hope you find out on what brought you to God.Or kept you from Him.Or keeping you from Him. Because for those who have God keeping them from Him can't use the "He's not real rhetoric."Everyone knows deep within himself or herself, deep inside they're searching for an peace that only God can command. A love that only God gives. A understanding that can only come from the Heavens. And forgiveness that is cosmic. Now, in conclusion. I would like to thank everyone for being in my life.Good, bad, ugly.Friend, Foe, Family.Amazing or trivial.Thank you very much for shaping who I am.I hope you can look back and see whom, how, when, why, you are molded and molding into this person you are.I hope you're happy with yourself. But, I pray that if you aren't you're convicted to follow the simple ways of Jesus, savior and Lord.Take this from me Lord. Take this my life. Make it yours. Oh Lord.You're delight.God, shape me to your likeness.Ever closer to Thee.Holy majesty above,How I love you,How you love me.Share with me your thoughts!