Steadfast to save

2 Timothy 2:15Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.
There are things in life that you cannot change.Circumstances in which you have absolute no control over and that you're just going to have to deal with.How are you going to deal with the circumstance?Typically I, in my attitude of Mr. Do-it-all plastic superman. I'll try to take charge and find ways I can make a fix.That approach has burdened me beyond belief and my despair as a result has my heart left calloused and enclosed with chains.To say the least in not a very emotional person. I see that as a character flaw, again due to circumstances I mishandled.Regardless, I'm saying this because my life again is about to have some dramatic changes in my family and in my church and I am left in shackles of pain and Habakkuk is my favorite book right now.(read it, and you'll see)
I'm asking for prayer. I need some help from the host of heaven. I cry out to God. Deliver me from these trials. I've never been one to let anyone in on my life. Simply because I hate to revisit most of it, and second I think people think of me differently. That is why again, I'm not going to share these tribulations. But, know my heart is sad.There is one God. I believe in Jesus. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe the Holy Spirit. I believe the Bible is the word of God. I believe that people are real and that spirits dwell in them. I believe in heaven, I believe in hell. Demons, Angels. I believe in myself.I don't believe that they give me a right to be plastic. Or Fake.I'm just another dude with problems in my life, baggage that's hard to carry and situations that are almost impossible.Being a Christian does not mean that your life all the sudden gets better, that's the opposite of the bibles teaching. The bible stresses you will be undergoing trials, but, your spiritual condition is what matters and through that it will test your faith. God, is my rock. Mark 8:36What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?Philippians 4:7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.I may be sad. But, I live with out joy.I may not understand, but I live in peace.It may be a lot to handle, but I'll try my best to be self-controlled.It will take some time to heal, but I have patience.Best thing over all. Is I'm forgiven.1 Corinthians 10:13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.Booyah!Philippians 4:13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.2 Peter 1:3-4His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.Nehemiah 8:10Nehemiah said, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."Psalm 28:7The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.