Friendships like faded jeans

It sucks when thinking about someone and your emotions turn to that of:Pain.Fear.Dismay.Anger.Or you're simply left Empty.Yeah, I'm real. I've had several relationships in my life go sour.Some in the past.Some, recent.Some, didn't impact much.Some, changed my life.Is severance necessary? Is there no other option? Do you really have to say goodbye, forever?Friendships like faded jeans can never be what they once were.And seams ripped will always be ripped seams.Oh, and you can't put new ones on that would be able to match the ones you loved.I loved them jeans.But, apparently by their own reckoning they chose to take something from both of us. I consider it somewhat selfish, especially when you share love.Years may go by, and you won't talk to them again. Does not mean you forget.I wonder, do they suppose they're doing me a favor? Because, by that logic, a lot of people would have broken hearts like shatter glass, walking around through life with bare feet, because, it's excruciating pain. Ever wondered why break ups are so awful? Why can't they just go on their merry way and be apart?Never happens like that, when something is there that is: deeper and authentic.They have connected on levels that few reach.Maybe it was physicalMaybe it was relationalMaybe it was spiritual.Likely to be a healthy mix of all three. (Less physical, more spiritual.)What about when people are really connecting and they never break up.Wow. People are just enamored! Why? The worse is when people have a front they play like a bad drama.Which in turn, turns in to really bad drama, and they are front-center.Sometimes, then, it will happen. This experience.In which someone takes it upon their noble self to say. "I will no longer have you apart of my life."Sometimes it's guys.But, likely girls.(I'm a guy, writing from a guy standpoint.) You understand. JGranted, yes! There will be extenuating circumstances in which severance is a viable option.In other words, sometimes its ok, it's call for, it's what should happen. But, hopefully the one executing the relationship is seriously able to discern what it is they are really doing.It's not that I'm in a relationship. Honestly, I suck at relationships. I'm sure you can call some people to get that fact DOWN. But, I'm not only talking about relationships defined as a significant other.I'm saying all.Parents, siblings, extended family.Friends, foes, fellers.(lol)People who've betrayed you, people who've done you terribly wrong.People, who've insulted you, people who've hit you.All relationships.People you love, people that love you, people you've cared for.People you supported. People who've supported you.Guided you spiritually. Or taken you away.I'm writing because I've lost people in my life I care for.Because, sometimes, you lose them because you care for them.That, in perspective is ok, than loosing someone because stupid and foolish reasons.Sometimes people can let go of their pride, or sin.Like a torn in the flesh, or a ringing in the ear.I go about my day.But, I always feel, always hear the pain. I'm sorry this has been choppy, and someone a random rambling of staggering emotion.but, when it comes down to it.It's all about being able to forgive.I have forgiving, because He first forgave me.